Git-filter —force - my code disappeared before being pushed

Hello,

My name is Laura, I m a QA engineer, I am in a critical situation where I have lost my code which was not pushed on repository and cannot get it back on local computer due to a fatal mistake.
Because I had a deleted big file in my project/branch (an .ipa file) Git did not let me Push the code even though the file was not anymore in my project. That was very curious.

I had superficially read that Git rejected my Push due to caching that file and should use Git Filter
Because git filter command on my branch did not work I have added — force argument and it deleted my code without having no clue about this consequence.

Now I can see in git log 2 commits previous to this calamity moment but I cannot see the commits done right before the fatal Push and git filter. I cannot restore any commit I get permission denied and I don t want to loose any potential data that could be recovered at this point. 

Is anyone so kind to help me recover my code, if there s any chance? I am using Osx last version on my computer.

My email and telegram (L102030  ) are open for any recommendation.

Thank you in advance.
Kind regards!
Laura